wave of emotions, be it positve or negative

what do i mean by the title for this post? okay, i shall fill u ppl in with the details. *btw, this is such a sweet colour, eh?*

come on, cut me some slack would you? i too have my downfall period rite? i have my moments as well.. so dont mind me ranting on bout what i feel.

so on the 9th of jan, i was accompanied by laine to IMU to collect my results. remember the subject that i said i didnt do well and purely depend on luck if i want to pass? yeah, luck is definitely not on my side coz if it were i wont be here at teluk pulai for now but i'll be in bukit jalil instead.

the reaction that i gave out was not one that anyone would expect. i took it like a man! AHAHHAHA okay okay, not so much like that.... i was surprisingly okay for the start, it only became worse after a while. probably i'm ready for it that's why its not SO bad. hehe, laine's my witness!

then on the way back, we manage to drop by cats whiskers for a while, she got a few nice tops. i didnt get anything *yet*
and we came across a "small" incident on the road. *i dont wanna talk bout it* collect some stuff in aeon, then send laine back.

at home, shit happens.
i had a glimpse of dissapointment/sorrow from dad's face. it breaks my heart seriously. i am not so sad for myself coz i know where i went wrong an i accept the mistakes that i take, but i didnt do well in the daughter department.

on top of that, i raised my voice an questioned my dad. i "menderhaka" (such deep and heavy word) at that point, coz i can't go on with things that i FELT he shouldnt do. but oh well its all cleared up yesterday follow up by more tears sheddin. aish, i'm too emotional.

its such a weak characteristic. emotional. pffftt!!

i hate being emotional. such a weak characteristic at times. i care too much, worried too much for my family, is that wrong? no?

if only i'm able to shut it out from my brain !!

i have to learn how to "push it aside" for a while. hehe.

i'll try, i promise.

so, all i got was a freaking LOOONNGGG holidae that no one wants to have. i will be wasting one year and graduate one sem later than the first batch since i'll be joining the 2nd batch ppl in July just to retake the subject that i didn't pass.. *stupid system rite??*

was pretty down for a moment, okay "pretty down" is SEVERELY an understatement.

BUTTTTTTT wait!

all these sorrow or somesay lamentable event has been counterbalanced by an euphoric nite!

i wanna shout out to a few ppl that made the night wonderful and AWESOME!
*drum rolls*

ANG ENG HUAT!!!! - i love you bro, none of this would've been possible without you! i dunno how to repay u lah! *guilty guilty* i will think okay!
AND i owe u HUSE ASS time!

obviously not to be forgotten (in random order)
-=* laine!
-=* bao!
-=* mae!
-=* jue!

that high feeling is terific! haha, lucky i nvr do any stupid act except being super hyper or else, i shy lorh! hehe.

i will get those pictures from jue, then will put it in facebook! =)

okay, habbo is FREAKIN' cute, then my mood got spoilt by sum perverts aiyo, my eyes! arghhhh... *ewww*

shall adjourne to it ( other habbo activities) later.

much love peeps!

-=*[SAN]*=-